Thursday, March 30, 2017

Life on the funny farm



This is Jake's 12th season playing and my 9th season apart of this rollercoaster we call our life. The last 9 weeks has been some of the hardest weeks of our life. We welcomed our sweet son into the world on January 25 weighing 7 lbs 3 oz. I had an amazing labor like Stella, and he is the sweetest little boy. We love him so much, and so grateful to get to experience a boy and girl. He has stolen my heart.  Everyone thinks it will be so easy after birth, but Cope got very sick around 3 weeks with strep b, croup, and another infection. Then the medical bills start coming in (we picked a horrible plan while in Japan) and Jake starts spring training two weeks after he is born now competing for a spot. It was a lot adjusting to two kids, being so spoiled having Jake with me 24/7 for 4 months, and a new team knowing the reality of the situation if he didn't pitch well.

My mom has told me more than I have wanted to hear, but it does make me laugh every single time that my life right now is "life on the funny farm".. I guess laughing is better than crying and have done more than I like to of that as well. I remember when Jake would pitch and I wouldn’t be allowed to mention money or anything that would stress him out. ha i feel like now everything happens the day he pitches including Stella taking off running up to him while warming up to show him her new lollipop as the entire front office is there and watching (oops) LIFE HAPPENS ON DAYS YOU PITCH.. This has been the hardest spring training of the 12 spring trainings he has had. We aren’t dumb, we are “old” in baseball and we knew we are one of the guys who easily could be released plus hearing they needed to release 20+ guys. We had negativity daily from players, and that got to Jake mentally big time. I book a place in AAA (Toledo, Ohio) weeks ago, and then know possibility of 7 different scenarios can happen. Monday we were told one thing and in another state so I started to look frantically for a place there (because Jake is leaving in 2 days) and then to Tuesday being told something completely different. I haven’t even been able to pack because i don't know what I'm packing for. I knew it would come down to 24 hours before we would leave we would find out where we would move to. We also have decided to rent our home out for the season, and they are supposed to be moving in the end of April but haven’t packed one thing for that either! So life on the funny farm.. 

 This past week i’m cross sided. I don't know what to think anymore or where to begin between therapy for Cope, and life. I am waving my white flag and giving it to the Lord. We don't understand the outcome of everything, but I know this Jake has worked so hard and continues to amaze me with his attitude, and spirit. I know wherever we end up this season is exactly where we are supposed to be. We definitely aren’t starting where we would like to, BUT it isn’t where we are finishing. We have so much to be thankful for and I have been reminded constantly on social media seeing so many friends getting released it could be worse! Jake was told that he has to stay in extended here. What this means is he doesn't have a spot on any team, and until unfortunately someone gets hurt he will just practice in Lakeland with the 18 year olds who just signed or guys who are rehabbing. Not going to lie we both were very upset at first, and still hurts. Its humbling to be this far in the game, and to be in extended with no spot?? I mean we thought we were going back to Japan to now extended at 29 years old.. I was so proud of Jake for accepting this assignment we looked at a lot of different options, but between our agent and us talking we all agreed this was the best option especially with two kids, and really like Detroit. We get to live at home, Cope can continue therapy for his neck to strengthen, and get older before we leave. I was so proud of Jake he said lots of times older guys aren't the nicest everyone is bitter in extended, but he plans on using this for good and to help the young players and to have the best attitude every day. Thats all you can do! We will take each day for what it is and keep pushing through to follow his dream of playing baseball! It could be a day or a month, but we are just on standby for AA or AAA. Our parents are amazing and both willing to do whatever to help transition us with with this move. My dad is on stand by to drive both places are about 17 hours with my car and trailer, and the Brighams have talked about driving Jake's car up because more than likely Jake will have to fly out quickly once we get the call. I'm grateful they haven't disowned us and our crazy life just yet... haha 

 I could not be prouder of Jake and how hard he has worked, and continues to work to pursue his dream! I believe this still is an exciting time for us and our family! Looking at these pictures I have to stop and smile knowing how blessed are we?? Our marriage is stronger than ever, we have two beautiful now healthy children, and an amazing support system from our friends and family! This is just one curveball in our journey and I know God has big plans for us whether its baseball or not I know HE ISN'T DONE with us! 








Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Hello 2017

This off season is flying by for us! I keep trying to blink harder to go back to October! We have less than 5 weeks to go before Cope arrives. Yes-Cope Ryan is his name. Jake and I always have loved really unique names (me more than him) and heard Cope before we had Stella. Ryan as many of you know is after my brother who passed away. We were very unsure on Cope until about a month or so ago, and Stella kept calling him Copey so it stuck.

We have really unplugged and have focused on enjoying our last few months with just Stella and craziness of the season. Jake and I have grown so much in our marriage in Japan realizing what our family needs during the off season because we always end up having the hardest off seasons. This has been my favorite so far and really trying to soak up all our blessings in Florida.

Baseball... oh baseball you're going to put me into labor.. it's been a very hard two months. We really really wanted to be in Japan, but I believe God is closing that door for us right now. I wish we could understand, but we don't. We just have to trust. I feel like it's for Cope and I. As much as I tried to put a brave face on that I  would be okay with Jake leaving a week after his son is born, and away from us for 2 months. It's not okay. I think we would do what we have to for our family, but that may have been my breaking point in this lifestyle. It has been sad and hard for me to watch Jake do everything he did this season embracing the culture, pitching well, amazing to the fans to not being wanted. Japan will be a very special place and memory for us and we will always be grateful for the friends we made and unbelievable experiences! We really hope to go back again to play, but for now trusting in God where He wants our family to be for 2017 and that's with a team in the states!

Jake became a free agent first week of December and now officially teams can reach out to him. It's exciting thinking about being in the states this year after last year nothing sounds far. I'm thankful to receive the help I will need from our family, and adjusting to traveling with two. That itself will be a challenge packing up for 6 months it doesn't matter if this is my 6th season of full time travel I am the worst packer ever....

We had the opportunity to go to PAO a few weeks back the Christian conference for baseball players. It always is a great time to reconnect with people who understand our lifestyle, and a few days of amazing worship and teaching. It was in Orlando so worked out perfectly! It was the first time I have ever been away from Stella for a day. I survived... we were group leaders and that was the scariest thing ever, but again I survived and had an amazing group!

We are now in January and right before Christmas agreed to terms with Detroit Tigers! We are very excited for this new opportunity and felt like God was making it clear as day basically putting it in the palm of our hands to sign with them. Jake will live at home for spring training since in Lakeland woohoo!! He will get an extra almost 2 months at home with us, and not have to disrupt our life a little longer. He was not invited to big league camp, but will hopefully get some good opportunity and be able to pitch to be seen some. We appreciate all the prayers and support and excited be play American baseball again!! Detroit seems like the perfect fit for our family right now.

I'm 36 weeks pregnant and ready to have him! We have a crazy next two weeks and Jake's little brother, Luke is getting married (WHATT AND HOW?!?) We are very excited to celebrate and gain a new sister in law. We have no idea what to expect the arrival with Cope since Stella was born at 38 weeks, and I'm already dilated with many contractions sporadically. The doctors think two weeks or less so that means I really need to get ready! Second child problems slacking on everything last minute but we have just enjoyed life and our off season doing what we wanted!

I will try to keep you posted if I know when Jake is pitching but he will be playing in Lakeland, Disney, etc for spring training so if you're able to let us know if you happen to go to a game always love seeing familiar faces! Happy new year and I hope everyone had a great Christmas!!